So not a part of this world!

Up until about 5 minutes ago I was on the fence about whether or not I belong in this world I live in...now i am certain that I do not. What the fuck is wrong with people. I get soooo tired of watching people mistreat others because they feel that certain people are important and certain people are not. Having been a victim of this treatment myself on multiple different occasions, I am numb to it. But I hate to see others feeling disrespected and worthless because of it. When will poeple realize that we all hold the same value in God's eyes. No one person is more important than another.

I'm sitting at work and I watch a friend of mine wiz by the receptionists desk with a ticket to the Mayor's Ball for one of the doctors on the hall. The receptionist jokingly said, "I want a ticket , you got one for me?" And my friend continued walking briskly and ignoring the receptionist and insisting that she was looking for the doctor. C'mon is it that serious? I mean could you not have taken two seconds out of your schedule to acknowledge the receptionist or let's go a step further...give the receptionist a damn ticket too. What makes one person more valuable than another. Degrees? Social Status? Gender? Race? You can't just go through life walking over people based on some superficial hierarchy.

And furthermore, the mayor's ball is so fuckin' boring. Does anybody want my ticket....matter of fact i'll give the receptionist a ticket. Shit! I can never stay at that event longer than an hour anyway. It is both a privelege and an honor for anyone to even want to attend it. And let the record show that just a few weks ago, that same doctor who's request my lovely friend is busting her ass to fulfill (by bringing her these extra tickets to the ball) called me on my cell phone and said the following: " Who is that lady that works in the mayor's office, I know you know her and she was talking to me like I was supposed to know her and I don't even know her name." Wtf! It pissed me off that she didn't remember my friend's name and was trying to play her like she wasn't important. Then I see my friend turn around and do the same thing to the receptionist.

People please stop thinking you are so important and other people are beneath or even above you for that matter. Let us all decend to ground floor, get off our high falutent asses and just keep it real!

And whats worse is that same doctor used to treat me like a peace of shit until she found out who my mother was and since then she has consistently tried to connect with me on the lamest shit ever. ..Jack-N-Jill...anybody who knows me knows that I can't take someone serious who totes around their membership to Jack-N-Jill like its the fuckin pulitzer prize. Please doctor, continue to treat me like the true piece of shit that you thought I was before someone told you differently based on what my mother has accomplished and the social circles she is a part of.

I am not my mother...and don't get me wrong if I reach 25% of her accomplishments someday I would be overjoyed. But please don't treat me like I became a new person overnight becuse she is my mother. I am still the rags you saw yesterday. I can't even afford my cell phone bill most months. And while mother is the shit, I am not...so don't act like you and I developed some things in common overnight. You were just talking to me like I was a piece of shit and throwing ink pens at me, now we're friends? Get out my face please, now. And stop fuckin' talking to me about Jack-N-Jill. I am 26...I graduated from Jack-N-Jill, count 'em 1, 2, 3, 4,...drumroll please 8 years ago (nearly a decade) and while I am the biggest supporter of all organizations that target african-americans, particulary those with a cause or a mission to serve the community I am not with the classist bullshit that goes along with it. While Jack-N-Jill fostered my passion for community service, I do not believe that the JILLERS are above or beneath anybody else. So get out of here with that.

I obviously do not belong in this world because I don't care about being imporatant, embracing certain cliques of people, being a part of certain organizations, etc...Why don't people just create their own social circles and organizations based on...OMG here it comes... people that you want to be around because you like the person, not who they know , what they do, or where knowing them can get you. Let's stop treating life like it's a stage and we're all actors and actresses...People get paid to act, so take your show on broadway and get a paycheck if that's what you want to do with your life. Please stop being so disingenuine.

Start measuring people's importance based on the role that they play in your own life. For example, your mother, your father, your sister, your cousin, your best friend...important to you because of their "person", because of the love that they've shown, because they are always there for you, because they make a difference in your life everyday...Lets stop worrying about where your relationship with certain people can get you in life. Let that bullshit go..Please! Its worthless...a relationship that has no value and is based strictly on convenience. Surround yourself with people that have your best interest at heart and fuck all the rest. Size up the people that are in your life and align yourself with the people that are down for you, people who are solely concerned with who you know, what you do for a living, or where you may or not be going in life, or even what social event you can get them into...

Let us all take some to reflect on Lil' Wayne when so elequently said you worry about yours, let them worry about theirs, cause i got mine"...He's right! Get yours! Do you! And stop getting caught in all this meaningless bullshit. Meanwhile, I'll be on the first flight to Mars....

I just had to vent!