I'm thinking maybe if I would've made some better choices in my life, things would be alot different. Maybe if I would have just considered other people's feelings rather than allowing their feelings to guide my actions, I might be happier with the choices I made for myself. Maybe if I would've gone straight to graduate school for what I was really interested in, I'd be happier with my career trajectory. Maybe if I would've had a clue back then...Maybe if I never would've met you, I'd be better off...Maybe if I would've listened to my mind instead of my heart I would not have been so heart broken. Maybe if I would've taken you seriously, we'd still atleast be friends. And maybe if I did our friendship would've never ended in such hatred. Maybe if I would've given someone a chance...maybe...Maybe if I would just give you another chance, you'd get it right this time. Maybe if I didn't over think everything, maybe I could just live my life. Maybe if I wasn't always busy being there for you, I could have found time for myself. Maybe if you could be half the friend to me that I am to you, I might feel like I'm of some value to you. Maybe if you didn't only call me when you were in trouble and could not depend on anyone else, maybe I might believe you. Maybe if I didn't value your opinion so much, the things you said would'nt hurt so bad. But maybe if I didn't already think those things about myself, it wouldn't hurt at all. Maybe if I wasn't so sensitive I could "just move forward."Maybe if we wanted the same things out of life...just maybe...Maybe you got tired of me being so confused about what I what I wanted...maybe you knew I didn't want you...maybe I did...maybe...Maybe I should move out of New Orleans, maybe I do need to explore new things...
Maybe not...
Maybe everything in my life is the way it should be and I am who I am because of it...Maybe I can be content with what is, rather than what could've been...Maybe...I'm happy...
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